NOW IT'S ADEMA'S TURN.

LYRICS
ADEMA

Everyone

i'm sick of the excuses that you want me to believe

i've been understanding, giving everything you need

using me is over now and soon you're gonna see

i'm done with you, i'm done with you

would there be a difference if i followed what you say

taken from my mind and i can't seem to get away

using me is over now and soon you're gonna see

i'm done with you, i'm done with you

everyone is the same

quick to point the blame

all i know is that life is a struggle

why?

i can't seem to escape

all the games that you play

all i know is that life is a struggle

sorry i'm angry

i've fallen

from everything

why am i so angry inside my head

life's all the same

it's gonna change

i'm not ashamed

to live my life

everyone is the same

quick to point the blame

all i know is that life is a struggle

why?

i can't seem to escape all the games that you play

all i know is that life is a struggle


Blow it Away

everyday i think about what you did

livin' life ain't much with all this shit

cause i'm going insane with all of it

you keep driving me crazy

always crazy

you're gonna drive me crazy

you're gonna wake up one day dead inside 'cuz you're alone, not in my life

i think about you sometimes and wanna kill you

you disrespected my pride how could you do this?

all my life has always been like this

taking shit and i can't deal with it

selfish bitch thats always full of it

you keep drivin' me crazy

always crazy

you're gonna drive me crazy

you're gonna wake up one day dead inside 'cuz you're alone, not in my life

i think about you sometimes and wanna kill you

you disrespected my pride how could you do this?

i'm going crazy tonight and i blow it away

you want me

to be like you

you want me

to be like you

noooo!

i think about you sometimes and wanna kill you

you disrespected my pride how could you do this?

i'm going crazy tonight and i blow it away

i think about you sometimes and wanna kill you

you disrespected my pride how could you do this?

i'm going crazy tonight and i blow it away


Giving In

will you walk me

to the edge again

shaking lonely

and i am drinking again

woke up tonight

and no one's here with me

i'm giving in to you

take me under, i'm giving in to you

i'm dying tonight, i'm giving in to you

watch me crumble, i'm giving in to you, i'm crying tonight, i'm giving in to you

caught up in life

losing all my friends

family has tried

to heal all my addictions

tragic it seems to be alone again

i'm giving in to you

take me under, i'm giving in to you, i'm dying tonight, i'm giving in to you

watch me crumble, i'm giving in to you

take me under i'm giving in to you, i'm dying tonight, i'm giving in to you

watch me crumble, i'm giving in to you, i'm crying tonight, i'm giving in to you

i look forward to dying tonight

drink 'till i'm myself

life's harder everyday

the stress has got me

i'm giving in, i'm giving in, giving in, NO..

(I'm killing all the pain)

take me under, i'm giving in to you, i'm dying tonight, i'm giving in to you

watch me crumble, i'm giving in to you, i'm crying tonight, i'm giving in to you


Freaking Out

i was so much an outcast

no one ever liked me cuz i wasn't wanted

i was so different from the rest of 'em all

fucked up on the drugs from all the speed

and i never got no sleep

cuz i kept on trippin' over what they said

and everything that my mom said made me mad

and everything that my dad said made me sad

why am i even trying?

i'm crying out, i'm crying out

i cannot seem to keep from freaking out

spinning 'round, spinning 'round

i've fallen down

i cannot seem to keep from freaking out

you keep shootin' those glances relating to the rawness of a fucking lost kid

trying so hard to become just like me

talk like me, walk like me

you keep tripping on everything i wear

everytime i swear, even when it comes to my hair

it seems like you don't have the time to relate to my kind

i'm not a dumb fool in your life

why am i even trying?

i'm crying out, i'm crying out

i cannot seem to keep from freaking out

spinning 'round, spinning 'round

i've fallen down

i cannot seem to keep from freaking out

i'm tripping out, i'm tripping out

i cannot seem to keep from freaking out

coming down, breaking down

i've hit the ground

i cannot seem to keep from freaking out

now do you trip?

are you still tripping on me?

now do you trip?

why are you tripping on me?


The Way You Like It

i'll get inside you

don't live with shame

cuz feelings change

and fame remains

the reason why

you're gonna wanna take me home tonight

it's all the same

up in this game

the people change

and money claims

everyone from everything

i can't believe

that you would think that shit of me

i was amazed at the torment that you put me through

if you could see right through the greed

and all your needs

you'd realize that you're just about as bad as me

sometimes i only remember

the days when i was young

nowadays no one remembers when they were young and stupid

the way you like it

come on baby help me

someone to confide in

i'll get inside you

now you're begging me to stay

my life has changed

but fuck the fame

i'll stay the same

you can't complain when you can pay the bills and do your thing

appreciate

don't playa hate

congratulate

i miss the pain and the torment that you put me through

so what's to fear

when everything is crystal clear

you realize that you should do the things you wanna do

don't give into

what people say

don't be ashamed

to separate the feelings on your mind you can't sedate

sometimes i only remember

the days when i was young

nowadays no one remembers when they were young and stupid

the way you like it

come on baby help me

someone to confide in

i'll get inside you

now you're begging me to stay


Close Friends

today you told me that i'd hate you forever

i can't believe what's really going on

somehow i knew that you felt guilty for something

but tell me why you'd do this to me

today you told me that i'd hate you forever

i can't believe that you wrecked my life

i was betrayed

how can you say

that you feel sorry inside

it's devastating losing close friends

i've gone away

you make me stay

but i can't deal with the lies

i've gone insane losing close friends

today i made the worst mistake

i put my trust into someone i don't know

and now i know just who to trust

because you're laying in bed

you're thinking 'bout all the fucked up shit

i was betrayed

how can you say that you feel sorry inside

it's devastating losing close friends

i've gone away

you make me stay

but i can't deal with the lies

i've gone insane losing close friends

i'm so weak

the closeness of your skin

the smell of this place

makes me go insane


Do What You Want to Do

sign away all of my decisions

choke me when i breathe

too many opinions

i gave away my freedom to please you

let them talk so they feel important

they don't mean a thing, this is my own dream

why do you have to put this on me

where will we go

i'm a mess

do what you wanna do

when the fuck you wanna do it

try hard to live your life

live life the way that you want

do what you wanna do

when the fuck you wanna do it

try hard to live your life now

live life the way that you want

life's a game, so don't complain

you can't obtain, figure out

how to maintain, it's a shame

make a change so life will never ever bind me down

found out just what it's really all about

never doubt, i wish i could get out

why do you have to put this on me

where will we go

i'm a mess

do what you wanna do

when the fuck you wanna do it

try hard to live your life

live life the way that you want

do what you wanna do

when the fuck you wanna do it

try hard to live your life

live life the way that you want

where will we go

i'm a mess


Skin

days will come that make no sense

my present situation makes me think too much

it all revolves around you

this life that i'm living is nothing without you

i'd shed my skin for you

what would you want me to do?

i will always love you

but i can't live like this

this problem here is my fault

it's not that i don't care but i'm so lost

i'd shed my skin for you

what would you want me to do?

i will always love you

but i can't live like this

choke off the feelings inside

who you lying to?

will i survive?

i like what you put me through

cuz i feel almost alive


Pain Inside

realize that i've lost control

impulses keep flashing through my head

i'm on the outside

take apart my life, inside

why would i let them make up my mind and be misled?

go ahead make up your mind

i have had enough of who they want

leave me alone

there's pain inside

i can't understand

there's hate in life

that will not go away

go ahead make up your mind

i've had enough of who they want

leave me alone

realize that i've lost control

impulses keep flashing through my head

i'm on the outside

there's pain inside

i can't understand

there's hate in life

that will not go away

there's pain inside

i cannot live with it

it feels like no one

really understands

it's always killing me

the problems i face daily

it's always things that

i have always taken in vain


Speculum

there are so many people dying

you complain about your situation

what about me?

half the world wouldn't know what its like to lose your seed

maybe you can understand how it feels

i cannot reach that soul

you're probably watching over us

know that i think of you

it's killing me

the guilt has lasted, you still cry

it was all planned out

why was i last to know

don't you trust in me

the table's cold, it's too late

to make up for these mistakes

maybe you can't understand how it feels

i cannot reach that sould

you're probably watching over us

know that i think of you

it's killing me

if i would have known

i can't say what i would have done

if you could forgive

i'd like to rest with you someday


Drowning

i gave into the stress in life

i can't escape the pressure seems to get me down

it's like a needle in my spine, it stings inside, poisons me with time

i can't deal with your lies

i wish i could watch you drown and die

and take my time

life has always been a problem

can't you see i don't fit in

people have said i'm not OK

i lost my mind numb me till i won't feel pain again

it's like a needle in my spine, it stings inside, poisons me with time

i can't deal with your lies

i wish i could watch you drown and die

and take my time

life has always been a problem

can't you see i don't fit in

life is gone i am no one

life is gone i have no one

life is gone i am alone

fuck all the shit that you hold in your mind

let it all go and in time you will find

nothing is real and it dies in the lies

suffocate feelings you hide with lies


Trust

let me breathe

i can't even think right now

some things got me feeling guilty

hurt you slowly

but so surely

i don't know why

love you so much

i can't feel

because i'm lost

not too much matters no more

is it you, is it me, is it us, or is it trust?

push you into what i want

because i am so goddamn selfish

left you hanging

stopped relating

i don't know why

love you so much

i can't feel

because i'm lost

not too much matters no more

is it you, is it me, is it us, or is it trust?

i'm so alone empty and lost

it's easier to let you go

time will erode the shame and the fault

it's easier to let you go

let me breathe

Official Adema Bio
"I'm about bringing the show back to rock," says Mark "Marky" Chavez, lead singer and frontman extraordinaire of Bakersfield band Adema. "I remember when I was really young, a little teenager, I wanted to connect with the singer up there. I wanted some action and movement. When I'm onstage, I'm everywhere. I want to get those kids that are way, way in the back, because they remember that shit." Coming together in the same Central Valley breeding ground that spawned bands like Korn and Videodrone, Adema is the most buzzed-about heavy rock sensation of the year. After months of major label bidding warfare that reached massive proportions, Adema signed with Arista Records and began not only a series of high-profile gigs, but recording one of the most anticipated debut albums of 2001. "We go on the Internet and people are digging it (already,)" says Chavez, who watched demand for a digital version of the band's song "Everyone" nearly shut down the servers of promotional website Streetwise.com. "People either really love it or they don't, and that's when you know you have a successful band, because if people just go, 'eh, it's okay,' you know they're not even gonna buy the record." Chavez's confidence may come from his proximity to one of the most vital music scenes of the last decade. Growing up in Bakersfield - where he worked as a day care supervisor and flirted with becoming a teacher - the then-teenaged vocalist was well acquainted with many of the popular local acts, like Juice and SexArt, out of which came the musicians who would form Adema, Mike Ransom being the first. DeRoo and Fluckey were in Juice, the band that grew out of the ashes of SexArt, which included Davis and guitarist Ryan Shuck of Orgy. But Chavez had another connection as well: his older half-brother was Jonathan Davis, lead singer for Bakersfield's most successful export, Korn. "His biggest influence on me, and absolutely the best thing he could have done for me, was telling me when I wasn't good enough," confides Chavez about his brother. "I'm the type - and this is something that's instilled in our family - that when I want something, I go for it; there's no way you're gonna deny me or tell me I can't have it. But as far as being there and being supportive and stuff, he was awesome. "And just what is this music that sent two dozen record labels into a literal feeding frenzy on the basis of demos alone? Nothing less than a powerful, hard-driving, yet richly emotional fusion of heavy rock foundations, street sensibilities, and melodic modern rock flourishes that create one of the most original sounds on the already saturated "nu metal" scene. "When they called, I was just thinking, 'okay, I'll just do the demo and check it out,'" recalls Kohls, who was still in Videodrone at the time. "But they came to my house, they played me two songs, and they just blew me away. "The band had been rehearsing and demoing material for a year before Kohls joined, but the demos they did with him earned the attention of the record industry before Adema had set foot on a single stage. After clinching the deal with Arista, the band members retreated to a cabin in northern California for the intensive writing sessions that yielded the material for their debut album. "That's where the honeymoon ended!" laughs Kohls. "We had a few little scuffles, some cabin fever happening there," admits Chavez. "We got real down and dirty and wrote this record, but it was perfect. The first night, all our gear is hooked up, Mike strums his guitar, and boom, it just starts hammering down snow. We wrote that song "Giving In," and that just set the tone right there.""'Giving In' is a song about personal addictions," continues the singer. "I was really screwed up with liquor for a while, and I expressed a lot of bad feelings through alcohol. It gives you the feeling that you don't have any connection with anyone, and the title means you're just giving in to all those feelings, giving in to the bad side of life to numb yourself to responsibility." Other songs on the album, such as "Everyone" and "Freaking Out," reflect darker sides of human nature. "'Everyone' is about people who always want to point the finger at other people, instead of looking at themselves. But the song itself is sort of laughing at those kind of people. 'Freaking Out' is about growing up in a town where you're either a football player or you're nothing. There's nothing wrong with sports, but I wasn't respected for being a musician. It's also about paranoia, always tripping out about what people are saying about you." Despite the heavy subject matter, Chavez says that "I'm into making people feel good about living. A lot of these rockers out there are always going, 'boo-hoo, my parents, boo-hoo, life's so bad,' But you know what? Life ain't that bad." A perfect example is"The Way You Like It," which boasts an almost hip-hop braggadocio. "That's my arrogant side. It's about doing things the way I wanted to do them, and people telling me I was stupid for doing that, but I did it anyway and it worked for me." Adema got together in L.A. with producers Bill Appleberry (7th House) and Tobias Miller (guitarist with the Wallflowers) to record their long-awaited, self-titled debut. "We worked our asses off," says Chavez, "but we fully believe in this record." Next this five-man powerhouse will take their act on the road and prove that no matter who anyone is related to, it still comes down to the music and the musicians who play it."After the end of Videodrone, I was like, 'Am I ever gonna be able to fit in a real band again?'" says Kohls. "But when I started playing with these guys, I couldn't believe it. We were all one hundred percent confident with each other and felt like we were in the band together for ten years the first day we played. I've joined the band of my dreams